Saturday, January 09, 2010

The happiness that is shopping

I feel happy when I've spent the whole day shopping and bought a lot of nice cheap stuff.
I think its also more enjoyable when you shop with your best friend who has good taste and similar bargain hunting motive. haha..
Today is one of those days.
Although shopping does make me feel guilty because I am spending money buying things I possibly do not necessarily need..
But looking at the things I've bought, at the price I bought them at makes me happy all over again. haha..
I'm happy today. :)

charlyn recorded history @ 12:40 AM

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

Just a moment ago

Peace and happiness are such wonderful feelings.
I'm thankful for every moment of peace and happiness granted to me beacuse it is so hard to come by.

I wish that those feelings weren't so fleeting.
I wish they would stay a little longer each time I feel them.
I wish people around me were able to feel them. When they feel them, I feel them.

I hate the sound of misery that's ringing in my ears.
I hate not knowing what to do.
I hate that its all my fault.

charlyn recorded history @ 10:34 PM

Thursday, November 05, 2009

There you'll be

When I think back on these times
And the dreams we left behind
I'll be glad 'causeI was blessed to get to have you in my life
When I look back on these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there will always be a place for you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you'll be
And everywhere I am there you'll be

Well you showed me how it feels
To feel the skyWithin my reach
And I always will remember all the strength you gave to me
Your love made me make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there will always be a place for you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you'll be
And everywhere I am there you'll be

'Cause I always saw in you my light, my strength
And I want to thank you now for all the ways
You were right there for me you were right there for me
For always

charlyn recorded history @ 10:56 AM

Thursday, October 29, 2009

My bitter sweet affair

Yesterday, my eldest cousin got married. It was quite exciting as he is the first of any of my cousins to ever be married. (only cos most of the rest are not of marrigable age) Anyway, I was telling one of my hall friends about going for my cousin's wedding and he commented that attending weddings are bitter-sweet affairs. I know why its sweet, i mean obviously cos someone found the love of their life and is declaring it to the world with a cert and a ring. I guess its bitter because that someone is not you. So when its your turn, it'd be just totally sweet.

However, I usually just feel that weddings are such sweet events, I don't feel any bitter. I love going to weddings! I feel happy that someone has found their life partner. I just like all that lovey dovey atmosphere and I am generally happy for the couple without feeling bitter.

Anyway, my cousin's wedding was beautiful. It was a fairytale themed wedding and the program and videos were great! My cousin performed some magic to start the night off, before singing a duet with his new wife (which was incredible. didn't know he could sing so well). Other notable programs included my cousin's father and the bride's father singing a song each. Right there. That was my bitter.

My dad ever told me he wanted to sing at my wedding. As my uncle and the bride's father sung, I realised what I will never have and it once again reminded me of what I have lost. From now on, weddings will always be bitter sweet for me. I guess that at every wedding, when the bride is accompanied by her father or her father sings a song, that will be my bitter.

And as I thought deeper, I realised that my own wedding, which I thought would be a really sweet affair is going to be bitter sweet afterall.

charlyn recorded history @ 8:46 PM

Sunday, September 13, 2009

My gravity

Gravity

Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down

Oh I'll never know what makes this man
With all the love that his heart can stand
Dream of ways to throw it all away

Oh Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down

Oh twice as much aint twice as good
And can't sustain like a one half could
It's wanting more
That's gonna send me to my knees

Oh gravity, stay the hell away from me
And gravity has taken better men than me (Now how can that be?)

Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Keep you all where the light is
Just keep us where the light is
Ohh.. where the light is!

charlyn recorded history @ 4:14 PM

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

My happy birthday

I love celebrations. I love festivals. And I especially love birthdays.
Birthdays are a little special than all the rest of the celebrations/festivals because they are somewhat exculsively yours. Like its the occasion where people that matter (your family and friends) celebrate YOU. Celebrate that you were born into this earth and celebrate that you are part of their lives. It is also the time where you can celebrate that you have family and friends to celebrate with. This is why I like to throw birthday parties. I like to put everyone I love into one room.

This year, I decided not to have a party. I guess I was just feeling quite down and I forgot about how happy a party would make me feel. So basically I just spent a quiet day with zara, a very nice dinner with my family and wq. Than last saturday, my sailors booked me for the day/night. Blindfolded me at pennisular plaza, made me walk all around I don't know where.. and finally brought me to this rooftop place with a jacuzzi and suprised me with a birthday celebration.

It was wonderful! I really haven't been so suprised before. They told me we were just outside some resturant, BUT actually, they booked the governor's suite at royal park hotel! and the outdoor jacuzzi was the suite's private jacuzzi. It wld have been perfect if the tub wasn't filled with green algae. So we spent the whole day together and played some games in the evening before heading out to club for a while. Even though everyone was quite wasted in their own way at the end of the night, I really had such a blast.

Its times like these that I look at my life and continue to thank God for blessing me with wonderful friends who are like my 2nd family, which makes my life so full of fun and joy.

MY SUPRISE!

Our private algae jacuzzi. I think I was the only 1 who "used" it. >.<

Thank you sailors for this party I will never forget. :)

charlyn recorded history @ 3:28 PM

Friday, September 04, 2009

SIANitaization

I having the longest feeling of sian ever.
Everything just feels so... Sian.
I just don't feel like doing anything, but because I haven't been doing much to begin with, I have a lot to do. That just makes me feel even more sian. Its a vicious cycle.
I should be asleep by now, but I am just feeling so sian that I don't feel like sleeping. Its crazy I know.
Now I'm feeling too sian to blog.
ok bye.

charlyn recorded history @ 12:48 AM

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Hello God, its me Charlene.

Have you ever had that feeling like you needed to talk to someone, so you pick up the phone, but you pause and think... who should I call? You look through your phonebook and you realised that you have quite a few friends, but none of which you actually call and just talk on the phone. In the end, you just chuck your phone aside because you just don't really have anyone to call?

That happened to me just now. I'm the kind of person that hates to trouble people. Talking about my troubles is troubling people. So even though I have friends I can talk to, I don't want to talk to them about my troubles. Its just troublesome and depressing. I can't remember when was the last time I called my friend and told them that something is bothering me.

Its times like these that I really appreciate that God is always there to hear everything that's bothering me. It would be horrid if I didn't have Him to share my burdens with.

charlyn recorded history @ 10:57 PM

Thursday, August 06, 2009

My BBQ

Wei quan is the sweetest boyfriend ever!

Last saturday, I asked WQ if he wanted to meet the next evening. I told him I didn't want to stay at home and suggested we have a BBQ. It was a off the cuff thing so I wasn't really expecting it to happen. Sunday afternoon at 4.30, he calls me and asks if I was serious about the BBQ. I asked him to decide and he said sure!

So at 6.30pm I went over to his house. Apperently he got everything prepared within 1 hour!! When I reached, he was ready to go. We packed and went to the sembawang dam near his house. He set up this make shift BBQ and because of his fab scouts skills, he built a kick ass fire. As I was unpacking the stuff, i realised... we didn't have a thong for the charcol, we didn't have extra plates for the food.... AND here's the best one... we didn't have ANY utensils except a butter knife! Yes, no fork, no spoons, no satay stick! haha.. we ended up using the knife for everything! haha.. it was really funny!

It was such a lovely evening. I had such a wonderful time! He makes me so happy. Jealous not? hehehe...

The hardcore scout building that kick ass fire. He had to keep sprinkling water on it because it was too strong.

Our one and only utensil, the butter knife.

charlyn recorded history @ 10:11 PM

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Dad's 50th Birthday

On the 28th July 1959, a wonderful human being was born. During his short time on earth, he touched the lives of many. No matter the duration of time they knew him, all had only lovely things to say about this gentle, kind and fun-loving man. Oh what an honour and privilege to be his daughter. And what big shoes to fill. I wish I could be half as gentle as he was.

So 2 days ago, 28th July 2009, my dad would have turned 50. Early this year, we were all thinking about what to do for his 50th. Sadly, he wasn't able to postpone his departure to heaven 3 months earlier. So we decided that in true Chua family fashion, we would still throw a party to remember him. The party planning was definately a trying process. There were quite a few arguments and misunderstandings as there were numerous details to take care of for the party.

But over 70 guests and 50 balloons later, everything was worth it. I was so glad we decided to do this. We created a slide show of about 700 pictures of my dad's life. Such wonderful memories. As the guests ate and watched the slide show, I saw smiles on their faces. Many of them got to reconnect with old friends and remember those good ol' days. Some of my dad's old buddies came up to share about the fun times they spent together when they were boys. Laughter filled the room, as stories of their mischief were shared. We sang some songs my dad liked to sing when he was younger. And to wrap up the programme, we played a CD of a song (green, green grass of home) my dad sung this year during karaoke at my uncle's house, which my uncle recorded.

There were some tears, but the song talks about the wonderful feeling of being home. And indeed, my dad is home in heaven.

The lovely venue, chilton park's function room.

50 balloons, 1 represnting every year of his life.

After singing happy birthday, we let the balloons (which we wrote our birthday messages on) soar to heaven.

Happy Birthday Daddy.

"Green Green Grass Of Home"

The old home town looks the same as I step down from the train,
and there to meet me is my Mama and Papa.
Down the road I look and there runs Mary hair of gold and lips like cherries.
It's good to touch the green, green grass of home.
Yes, they'll all come to meet me, arms reaching, smiling sweetly.
It's good to touch the green, green grass of home.

The old house is still standing tho' the paint is cracked and dry,
and there's that old oak tree I used to play on.
Down the lane I walk with my sweet Mary, hair of gold and lips like cherries.
It's good to touch the green, green grass of home.
Yes, they'll all come to meet me, arms reaching, smiling sweetly.
It's good to touch the green, green grass of home.

Then I awake and look around me, at four grey wall surround me
and I realize that I was only dreaming.
For there's a guard and there's a sad old padre - arm in arm we'll walk at daybreak.
Again I touch the green, green grass of home.

Yes, they'll all come to see me in the shade of that old oak treeas they lay me neath the green, green grass of home.

charlyn recorded history @ 9:22 AM