Sunday, October 29, 2006
More to life - Stacie Orrico
I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed...
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
To life..
I really really love this song. In so many many many ways it describes the way i feel, almost all the time. I just know that life has so much more than the way i'm living it. Like how i spent my whole dayyesterday just slogging on projects and watching some tv.
I want to take a hot air balloon ride. Have a picnic on a rooftop garden. Suntan in my bikini on a deserted island. Dance in the moonlight with some sexy latin guy (muahaha). Set sail around the world. Milk some cows. Ride a magic carpet. I just wana do something like that right now.
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7:04 PM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
I feel different.
Not in a good way different. Like complicated and damaged different. I hate that i'm messing myself up with all this thinking. I really liked how simple and ordinary i was. now i'm just damaged and complicated. I wish it would stop haunting me. I just want to be simple and ordinary again. maybe being damaged and complicated is just part of growing up. everyone prolly experience more shit as time passes and they get more complicated and maybe more damaged. I know i'm prolly not the only one who feels this way and many other ppl prolly feel worse than me.
Well all this is my own fault anyways. so i'm not abt to bother anyone with it cos i got myself into this and i have to get myself out.
Time is a effective but inefficient healer.
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11:23 PM
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Today, after hockey at the pitch (which is crazy tiring after a long week of other tiring activities) and eating lunch/breakfast, i came home and decided to bathe like super duper clean one. I totally scrubbed myself like made sure i was super clean, and conditioned my hair and then put powder all over. It feels so great. I feel like a new person. hahaha... now to top it all off... i'm gona take a nice long nap. and i'd be ready for the challenges that lie ahead next week. BRING IT ON! i'm ready.
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2:06 PM
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
MY DENTIST IS SO CUTE!!We totally had chemistry I tell you. hahaha.. 4 LONG months before i can see my dentist again. sighs... He has got to be the sweetest dentist around. hahaha.... He's really young, only 25 years old. muahaha.. Let me tell you why my dentist is so sweet. He asked if my othodontist was gona maintain my teeth for me but i didn't know so he said he'd do it for me. he won't be getting paid more for doing this cos he's those NDC dentist who get paid fix salary, not on client basis. so sweet rite? hahaha... (or maybe he just wants to see me again... MUAHAHAH.. ya i wish!) okok whatever, my dentist is just cute.
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5:44 PM
