Friday, April 24, 2009
Clear skies today
I'm feeling a lot better today.
Btw, I just want to say tt I know WQ made the right decision not to come yesterday and tho it would have been damn super sweet if he came anyways, he doesn't have the luxury of time to do so. I wouldn't have really wanted him to sacrifice his very little very precious study time just to make me a little bit happy. That wld have been v. selfish.
Anyways, he did what he could. Just now he smsed me and tried to distract me from my grouchiness by telling me abt this girl who has $33880 of diamonds on her wedding dress. hahaha.. he's so funny!
Ok, I hope to study a lot more today. I want to finish all the readings i need to read by this week so that next week I can get down to really studying and the week after to memorize everything. I need to do well for this paper man. Its my ONLY paper so i MUST know EVERYTHING!
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10:01 AM
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Terrible mood
I'm in a terribly foul mood. I just want to pick a fight with anyone right now. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm super unhappy and cranky. I've been supressing this grouchiness for a while and just now it got triggered and now it can't be turned off. I've been trying so hard to distract myself from my own grouchy thoughts but its not working! I have to study and I don't want to be grouchy but I can't help it. I'm too grouchy to study. :(
Onto another issue, I haven't seen WQ in like 20 days, since the 3rd of April and I will only get to see him on the 30th of April after his exam ends. I really miss him. I was chatting with him just now for a while and we were toying with the idea of him coming over to study for a while. But I was afraid that I would distract him. (his next paper is monday and than on wednesday) So anyways, we talked abt it for a while and it was just KILLING me to talk abt him coming cos I kinda knew that he shouldn't but i really wanted him to come. Also, it would prolly make me not so grouchy anymore. Alternatively I could pick a fight with him in real life so it would be more exciting. Aiya.. ANYWAYS, I just told him to make the decision cos i was really torn btw doing the right thing or caving and i really couldn't make the decision cos it was too hard. And so his decision was not to come over, which is the right decision. I know we should concentrate on our studies first, but a little bit of me was hoping that he was lying when he said he won't come but than turn up at my door step half an hour later. That would be the third option, the crazy romantic decision. But that only happens in movies and tv dramas, which my bf doesn't happen to watch. He watches anime and i'm guessing cartoons don't teach ppl how to be romantic.
I'm still in a foul foul mood. :( I wish I had an alcoholic drink right now. No, make that alcoholic drinkS.
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10:29 PM
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
I'm a WINNER! or am I?
I'm trying so hard to feel like a winner right now when I just found out that I have been rejected by the istana office to participate in their internship programme. Its supposed to be a win-win situation cos if i don't get the internship, I would get to go on an almost one week long holiday in Bangkok with my sailors. BUT somehow... I still feel that sore-ness in my tummy.
I know I didn't do that great on the interview cos I anyhow answer some questions and I also was maybe a bit too bubbly.. so i was trying to prepare myself for the worst. BUT than i don't know why i always have this tiny bitsy hope that I would get it, since I'm a wild card, the underdog. hahaha... well.. that didn't happen. Don't get me wrong, I am very grateful for what I have. I have come a LONG LONG way from that girl who only scored 200 on her PSLE to the girl I am today, being nominated by NUS to go for this grand internship. Its just that I somehow wished I could really go all the way. Oh well.. I'm still thankful that I got this opportunity to go to the istana for an interview.
Now... if none of the other internships I applied for calls me for an interview, than I would really have a 3 months break! So it means I have to plan plan plan what to do. I definately don't want to just slack at home all day. It would be nice for a week, but after that it'd just get really boring. Pls suggest some ideas of what I could do during my hols!
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9:38 PM
Sunday, April 19, 2009
I need to lock my diaries up
Ah crap.......
Apperently, I didn't lose my diary. In fact, I left it out on my table and my dad found it. Passed it to my mum for safe keeping and its been in their hands for 2 - 3 weeks!!! OMG........ They all say they didn't read it, but its really hard to believe. My sis claims she didn't read it cos its boring. BUT how wld she know if she nv read it?! so she "changed" her story to say that she briefly flipped thru and found it boring. My mum claims she nv read it, but recently she has been asking me quite a lot of weird questions, which do coincide with themes of my diary. Although that could be a coincidence, but it really makes me wonder.... it really does.. As for my dad, he too claims he didn't read it. Somehow, he's the only one i kinda believe cos 1. he gave it to my mum for safe keeping (which may not have been a v. good idea) and 2. he would be the most "can't be bothered" of the 3 i just mentioned above. (my brother is not part of this because he is the REALLY the MOST "can't be bothered" person in the family.)
Arrrgghhh... it wld be really terrible if they read it. Not that i wrote anything bad abt them, just that its all my crazy crazy thoughts and not in a good way crazy. Yikes... i really need to lock my diaries!!!
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10:41 PM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Crap jacks... I hid my physical diary so well that I can't find it now. I've been searching for it the whole day and I can't find it!!! ArGh!! This has happened so many times. Like I will lose a diary, start writing in another, then find the diary that i lost and now all my diaries are not in order! like one diary can be for year 2004 but it has 2007 entries in it. DAMN!!!! Where is it!
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3:54 PM
Charlene + 3kg
HELLOOOOO! Just so everyone is clear, i can hear fine now. In fact, after they cleared my ear, i can hear everything so well that my whole world is really noisy. When i went to the school doctor to get my ears cleared, i had to do some registration thing and you always have to take your weight. And OMG i put on 3kg from the last time i went to the school doc in 2007. 3kg!! that's crazy! I have been the same weight since sec 4 so this is kinda crazy. I think its all the sitting down and doing my thesis and not doing any hall activities that has made me fatter. (stop rolling your eyes ppl and listen to my story. I'm NOT complaining abt gaining 3kg. I'm writing abt my thoughts on weight gaining. haha)
Actually i used to think that i can eat anything and not do any excercise and stay the same weight since that's been the case all these while, but i was WRONG. i was doing some excercise, tho not on my own, but i was. In sec school, there was PE. In poly, there was sailing. In uni, there was all that crazy hall sports i joined for points. So even tho i didn't excercise on my own, these activities actually made me excercise. BUT since i didn't join ANYTHING this last year, its really showing in my weight gain, which is very scary! I know i am skinny and i shld put on some healthy weight, but what i mean by scary is that my whole concept of "I can eat anything and not excercise and forever be slim" is NOT TRUE!
side note to zara.. we're gona do some excercising this holiday ok? we cld do more shopping marathons. HAHAHA...
Oh that reminds me! shopping used to be really good excercise for me. but i haven't shopped for so long that maybe its one of the reasons why i have put on weight cos shopping is actually really good excercise. Like if we're really engrossed, we can don't eat lunch, don't eat dinner and just shop shop shop! haha..
ANyways, i think i really need a healthier lifestyle. Like i need to eat healthier and do more excercise so that i won't get a heart attack at age 30. Plus, i think i need a tan. I look kinda sickly from the lack of sun due to all the staying indoors.
Alrighty, time for lunch and tv. HAHAH.. i will start my new lifestyle after my exams. HAHA..
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1:36 PM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Its over! or is it? + the cotton bud story
Hello everyone! I have finished writing my thesis and submitted it yesterday. I feel so relieved, at the same time really afraid that I may not do as well as i hoped. (I really have everything to lose if my thesis grade is screwed up.) Anyways... its been such a long and turbulent journey. I don't really want to go through it again... BUT, i just got reminded by my friend today, that in my masters application, i have to submit a research proposal. Which is due on 15th may. OMG... this is just blowing my mind!!! Its never going to end... I think I really need a break. I don't know why I am working so hard. I wonder if its really all gona pay off in the end and make me a somebody some day.
Onto something unrelated... Almost can't hear from my right ear. Why??
Sunday night after I showered, I used a cotton bud to clean my ear. And guess wad?! after i took it out, i was totally shocked to find out that it was only the stick and the cotton bud was in my ear!!! I was thinking... shit shit shit! At the same time thinking... OMG HOW RETARDED IS THIS!! So I called for my dad and his first reaction was to laugh. The news spread to my siblings and they were all laughing and calling me a retard. And i was telling them its not funny ok! but laughing at the same time. So finally when my mum came out of the shower, she was the only serious one. She called the clinic to ask what to do. They asked her to use those metal ear digger thing to try n see if she could dig it out. BUT the cotton bud was so deep in my ear that with a torch u could barely see it. So they had to bring me to the doctor to get it extracted. I called WQ to tell him about it, just before i left for the doctor. He was all "Oh no baby!" But i could hear from his voice... so i asked "you want to laugh right?" and he just burst out laughing.
Anyways, at the doctor, my parents were having a ball of a time making fun of me. The doctor was using this thing to look into my ear. And my parents asked the doctor if he could see them from the other side of my ear. -_-!!! Anyways, he looked in my other ear and said that there was compressed ear wax which could be impairing my hearing so he gave me some solution to drop into that ear. Now i can't hear almost anything from that ear which i dropped the ear drop in. Haiyo!! I'll go see the doc tmr to get it checked ourt
My parents were saying how i'm their most troublesome kid, who falls sick the most and just runs into the weirdest problems (i once got a pencil stuck in my head - a story for another time). So as they were brining me to the doctor to get the cotton bud extracted from my ear, they were like "we're totally not suprised. It must be you. only you can do this kind of thing." They thanked me for the drama, fun and entertainment after they dropped me off at my hostel. My parents are so funny.
Btw, DON'T clean ur ears using cotton buds! my doc says that ears clean themselves and we really don't have to use cotton buds. In fact, cotton buds push ear wax deeper into the ear and compresses it. Which is what happened to my right ear, which he gave me drops for that seemed to worsen the situation.
Ok, thats all for now.
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8:28 PM
Friday, April 10, 2009
The coolest thing I've ever done
I'm currently 22 (not yet 23) and I have been to the Istana for an interview!!! Even if I don't get it in the end, I'm seriously a winner on all levels.
Huh? How? Why?
THE LONG STORY:
Abt 2+ months ago, I blogged about being rejected by the registra's office for this Istana internship I applied for. And I mentioned that I was waiting for something better to come around. But seriously, what could be better than this?! Sooooo... Last wednesday, I recieved an e-mail from the registra's office telling me that the girl they initally selected took up another internship offer and the Istana wanted them to nominate 2 more students. AND 1 of the two was ME! :) :)!!! So the e-mailed asked me to go down for an interview with the Provost on that friday (2 days later).
I was super excited but at the same time, quite scared because I'm not very well read. Anyways the night before the interveiw, I read this passage in the daily bread about God reassuring Joshua that he could take on the task of leading the people into the promise land. And it really reassured me that God will be with me through this task I think may be too big for me.
So the next day, I went to the Provost office. The interview went really well. The Provost was a really nice guy and he wasn't intimidating at all. So after the interview he tells me that he will send in my resume to the Istana office then it will be up to them to inform me if I should go down for an interview or not.
Then on wednesday (2 days ago), I recieved an e-mail from the Istana asking me to go for an interview!! I could chose btw thursday (yesterday) or next monday. I chose yesterday cos my thesis is due on monday and I should keep that day free just incase any hiccups happen. SOoooo I was damn excited la! Anyways, before that I had to fill in a form on wednesday and in the form, I had to list 2 referees who were not my relatives, singaporeans and know me for more than 2 yrs. I had in mind who I wanted to ask, but I was a little paiseh. So I decieded to send an e-mail and just before I was going to send him the e-mail. He e-mailed me regarding another issue! This is just such a little miracle la. So i had to submit the form to the registra's office by 4.30 that day. And by 3.30 I still needed 1 more referee, but just in the nick of time, a servant of God agreed to be my referee. How wonderful is that!!! Everything just seemed to be falling into place so nicely.
Now onto the interview. The security there is really tight, which is extremely cool. I was grinning like crazy cos the whole thing was so cool!! all the police ppl prolly found me really amusing cos I was so sua ku. The lady who emailed me came to pick me up on a buggy. I was really more excited than nervous I think cos everything was just UNREAL! hahaha.... When I got to the building, she brought me to this tea room place. (Btw the istana is SUPERBLY beautiful, its surreal!! like it has an aura! I'm so proud that Singapore's president's official residence is so full of charm. It just took my breath away.) Ok so back to the tea room which the president entertains his guest. haha She went off to bring her other two colleagues. This uncle came in to pour tea. He told me its some black leaf pearl tea from china or something (not sure the name but it was along those lines) I didn't get to taste it tho, cos the interviewers didn't drink theirs so I didn't either. ANYWAYS the uncle was very nice. He told me not to be nervous and just to be myself. So sweet!
So the interview proper. There were 2 men and that lady who brought me in. I won't go into the details. But basically I think it went ok... even tho I think it could have went much better if I wasn't so excited. hahaha... They asked some really difficult questions and I really hope I managed to answer them properly and not come off as talking a whole load of nonsense. Oh well... I will know the results end of this month. (they will only chose 2 interns. 1 from NUS 1 from NTU) Whatever the results, this experience is really once in a lifetime. The selection process is so tough, its like american idol. Firstly, u have to be top 10% of ur cohort, no scholarship/bond, Singapore, 18 n above. I got through the first round, got eliminated at the second, came back in the wild card, went through another two rounds and now awaiting my fate. hahaha.. This is really so exciting!! I think this would be so perfect for me since I love Singapore so much! :)
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11:57 AM
