Monday, June 25, 2007

Oh what terrible timing to have tonnes of hormones running around in my body. Arts camp is starting tmr, but i gotta be there tonight. I haven't pack, i'm feeling low and i don't feel like doing anything. I hate this time of the month nonsense. seriously.. i hate feeling all insecure and needy. Like i constantly feel like i need to reassure myself that everything is fine and there is no problem cos i keep having this nagging feeling that something is wrong when everything seems alright. but the word that scares me is that everything SEEMS alright. but is it ACTUALLY REALLY alright? i don't know. i need things to be crystal clear so i won't have to keep guessing. but life is just like that right? we're always lost in some misty fog. see.. i'm just driving myself insane thinking about nonsense like this. Its the hormones i tell you. they have a way of making you think stupid things. argh...

check this picture out. i took it in bangkok. Isn't it the biggest mouse you've ever seen?! haha

charlyn recorded history @ 12:10 PM

Sunday, June 24, 2007

I've been busy attending Taran's cousin's wedding. Its the first time i'm attending an indian wedding, and i think its really damn interesting. everyone shld try going to at least one in their lifetime. haha.. The food is good, theres lots of singing and dancing, and lots of colourfully dressed indians. Its such a vibrant affair. Even as an observer, i had so much fun. I went for 3 of the events, but i only took pictures of the last one, which is the real wedding day. Wha... there were really TOO many ppl, so i had to take tonnes of paparazzi shots. hahaha...

At the groom's (taran's cousin) house. Groom on the left, with mum in pink and dad fussing over the head dress thingy. On the right is the groom's 2nd brother who is the best man.

He looks damn happy with the money

The goom n the best man a lot richer

The 3rd brother. So traditionally dressed but the hp and digicam helps us know hes from the 21st century.

Paparazzi shot from behind a bush. the baby is damn cute!

No pockets in my suit. so i kept my hp stuffed up the bottom of the pants cos it was tight enough to keep my hp from falling out.

Taran rigging the wedding car. haha

awww..

The "face off" btw the grooms family (walking tws the temple) and the brides family (those waiting outside the temple gate). hahaha...

our most indian picture. had to cover our heads before entering the temple.

check this out! high-tech temple!

After tonnes of unsuccessful paparazzi shots, i finally snapped one of the bride's face.

After the wedding, i rushed down to SAF changi to SAIL! uh huh! I LOVE SAILING! and my dear sailing friends. And i was even happier after i recieved some news. hahah... and Sailing yesterday was GREAT! The wind was just right. Not too light and just strong enough. the waves were just right too. The sun was covered by some clouds, but it was still bright. So overall the weather was wonderful. Perfect day to sail. We took some pictures, but i have to get them from sheryl first.

Later i met up w my hall friend for dinner and drinks. what better way to end the day then drinking some beer at timbre.

Just from living yesterday, i realised i really like my life now. I wish it would be like that for a while more. So many interesting activities and spending time with so many of my friends, doing just whatever i want to do. and sailing!!

charlyn recorded history @ 4:16 PM

Thursday, June 21, 2007

today's date is 21

And that's how old i'll be after august. 21.
I personally don't really feel the significance of it since i'm not planning to get married or own my own house or vote (my estate always gets walked over. haha) so turning 21 is just another birthday to me. However, to many people, turning 21 symbolizes freedom, or the beginning of adulthood. Now can you tell me what's so nice about that? What's so cool about not being controlled by your parents? What's so great about being responsible for your own actions?

I know i'm being silly, childish and immature. But i really don't want to grow up.... I know i'll always be my parent's child. but i want to be their KID forever!! With them having their reins over me, i feel safe. i don't mind not having so much freedom, or not being able to stay out late. I like having to seek their approval. I like having them be responsible for me. Sadly... i know that that's not possible. I guess i'm just trying to run away from the responsibility of being an adult, having to know better and behave mature. i can't possibly run forever.

So after much deliberation, i have decided that i WILL have a birthday party to celebrate my 21st birthday. To celebrate my acceptance of being responsible for myself. *ROUND OF APPLAUSE!* haha..

Now the big problem is.... i have no idea where to hold this party, which would happen on the 25th of august. So friends, please keep this date free so you can celebrate with me! (hahah.. that rhymes!) And also pls let me know if u have any suggestions on locations that can accomodate 50-60 people. I'm thinking of something more indoor with air-con. haha.. ok cool. i hope this works out.

charlyn recorded history @ 1:02 PM

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Church Camp

Yes, June is crazy! 3 camps. Arts pre-camp, church camp, then finally Arts camp which is next week.
Church camp was great! 5days 4 nights rooming with my girls, zara and cand, learning more about God, getting to know others better, and putting certain areas of my life into perspective. The only bummer was that my goggles got stolen. Not by malaysians (cos the camp was at Sofitel Palm resort in Johor) but by singaporeans! How terrible is that! I've had those goggles for the longest time, and we really bonded so i was damn sad when i realised it was gona be gone for good. like having a good friend die. hahaha... ok i know i'm being drama. but i was about to burst out in sobs if not for za and cand's comforting.
Caught my parents holding hands. isn't that sweet? i think everything is gona be fine. Yea, all is good for now. but i feel a cramp coming up, so i think peace for me isn't gona last very long once pms hits, which should be now or just now.

I watched the Fantastic 4 movie just now. It wasn't too fantastic actually. just another movie which i could have watched on TV when it comes out. The company made up for it though.

I was asking myself if i liked to be sent home. Actually i think every girl likes to be sent home, cos its a form of pampering, which girls generally like. Then i asked myself if guys like sending girls home. I think guys who send girls home feel they have a responsibility for the girl's safety, or feel that its just the right way to end a date. I think its nice of the guy to feel he has to protect the girl. But if the guy has to go out of his way to send the girl back every single time when its late, then take public transport home... the responsibility would no sooner turn into a chore.
So do i like to be sent home? It largely depends on who's sending me home. but like most girls, i do. However its not because i like to be pampered that way, but because i like the company of the person. so it would be nice if the someone sending you home sents you home because he first and foremost likes your company and wants to spend extra time with you, then secondly feels responsible for your safety. cos guys can feel responsible for all the females they meet, and send them home for that reason. but for a guy to enjoy sending a girl home cos he likes her company and wants to spend that little extra time with her, that means she's prolly someone special (feeling like someone special definately trumps feeling pampered for me), and he won't find it a chore.

charlyn recorded history @ 12:15 AM

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Pre-camp

My dad has got to be one of the best dads in the world. Which other dad wld come and pick up his daughter from vivo city at 11pm when he is already in his sleeping clothes at home? My dad did that for me yesterday. I love him!!

Just came back from 2 days of arts pre-camp. What is pre-camp? its actually a camp for a camp. haha.. where councillors test out some activities for the actual arts camp. and well, i think the arts camp is gona be damn fun! I remember last year's arts camp. It was definately the funnest camp i've been to. If only i had the heart to enjoy it more. This year, its gona be a little different cos i'm a councilor and even tho i won't be playing the games, but cheering others on, i've got the feeling i'm gona enjoy it a lot. i guess i've got the heart this year. haha.. and also cos pre-camp which was only 2 days was such a blast, so arts camp shld be a bigger blast. I actually cheered. like really cheered cos i wanted to cheer not cos everyone else was cheering. haha.. yeay!
"Give me a A-R-T-S ... blah blah blah blah blah blah ... kick your ass!" even tho i can't rem the cheer's wordings, i'm getting there. haha..

charlyn recorded history @ 4:12 PM

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

my days

My 10 days of work finally finally ended on sunday. It was really so tiring. standing 10 hrs per day is no joke. really.. it makes 10 days feel like one whole month! but i'm so glad i did it. From promoting newspaper and magazine subsciptions to having the craziest job for a 20 yr old, selling herbs, magic stones and all sorts of random stuff, i actually had fun. I didn't dread going to work, suprisingly.
each day had its own sort of little adventure. I made new friends, got to know a friend better, and got aquianted with many interesting people. Of course the occupational hazzards of selling the herbs was not being able to go out for lunch and dinner (like a little prisioner) and having really old (like 70yr old) men asking me for lunch or my number (seriously... eww.. but i guess its a good way to get a sugar daddy, or sugar Granddaddy. haha)

I can't believe its wednesday already. My holiday is passing too fast! I can't believe that monday and tuesday are gone already. I guess when you're having a lot of fun, time passes really fast. And also when you wake up at 12, time passes even faster. haha..

Monday... my first day of freedom! Went shopping with za and cand. za and i wanted to get uncle victor a tie from Raoul. But they had TONNES of ties! We spent at least 30-40mins in the shop deciding which to get. Also cos for such a small piece of cloth, it cost so much, so we had better get a good one which he would like. haha.. We went to watch Shrek 3. omg... it was damn lame and damn funny. i laughed so hard! just my kind of show. haha.. I love spending time with these girls. it was so nice to be together again, after our long break from each other because of all our travelling and cand's 3 week trip to USA. She got us really cute t-shirts and slippers! now the 3 of us have the same slippers! i absolutely love the idea of it. hahah..

Tuesday... I finally went to sentosa to suntan! I can't believe how much it has changed! i mean the last time i went to siloso beach, i think cafe delmar wasn't even built yet. that was how long ago. I had such an amazing day suntanning, playing silly games and just relaxing without a care in the world. i really liked the feeling. If only time could just stand still for a bit on that lazy afternoon. The sun set was beautiful. I loved the way all the colours in the sky came together. If only i could live like this everyday, doing just what i want to.

Wednesday... today is going to be spent at home, watching tv and reading Othello. Tonight is going to be happening i hope. dance class and more daning after dance class. haha.. can't wait!

charlyn recorded history @ 12:26 PM