Friday, February 27, 2009

I want to go shoe shopping!

I really want to get some new shoes. I realised I haven't bought a pair in the LONGEST time. Like since last year june. granted I bought 3 pairs then, but I want to buy some that aren't so formal. Like heels that I can wear around school or something. Those out of the 3 pairs I bought in june, 2 are like my grand event shoes (sliver complicated one and black glittery one). The third pair is green and black which is kinda uncomfortable meaning I can't wear it too long. So I need new casual comfy-ish shoes. like these...

Aren't they beautiful??? I know some of my friends are gona say... "but don't u already have a few pairs like that?" My answer is NOooo... I don't . I don't know why ppl think i got a lot of this kind of shoes. I only have 2 pairs of wedges and they are not like these at all. These are so nice and pretty.... but I hardly ever see shoes like these in singapore. Hmm... I think KL would sell shoes like these. or maybe bangkok. Or maybe Hong Kong? Man..... I really wana go shoe shopping! who wants to go to KL, BK or HK with me to shop for shoes? haha

charlyn recorded history @ 11:25 AM

Thursday, February 26, 2009

I am a pissy bitch

As titled...
I am mean, impatient, pissy and bitchy.
I'm a terrible person.

I find it so hard to be nice recently. Like I know i'm not nice all the time, but at least I try really hard to be nice most of the time. But recently..... I feel so fake when I'm doing so. Like how last night, I went to my aunt's house for dinner cos it was my uncle's birthday and she cooked crabs her usual way... and you all know how much I like eating crabs, but I only at 2 pieces of her crabs...cos man... they're tasteless! as in on the outside u can taste the chili but then inside the meat is totally tasteless. And this is all the time. And her crabs are usually tiny. Like seriously tiny. Like the kind where the whole crab is smaller than my hand. Eat until damn pek chek ok! So she asks me if the crab was nice. And i tried very very hard to smile that my mouth probably twitched, and said "ya, its nice."And then she goes on to tell me she doesn't like the crabs outside cos they are sweet. -_- OMG... who the hell doesn't like sweet crabs man?! I almost rolled my eyes at her and told her tt's the lamest excuse for cooking cheapo crabs.

Then last night after dinner, WQ was talking to me n telling me this person living 2 rooms away from him has left unwashed dishes outside his door for 2 days and leaves this huge clothe hanger thing with tonnes of clothes on it in the corridor, obstructing everyone's way. So I suggested that WQ write him a note anonymously and paste it on his door. I suggested that the note be damn nasty telling the guy that if he doesn't clear his stuff, he will be complained to the hall office and the hall office will either fine him heavily or kick him out. And tho it is totally none of my business, I bug WQ to write the nasty note. But of course WQ being the super nice guy doesn't wana do it. See.. something is wrong, ppl i don't even know I also wana be mean to them.

Than today.. i think today was when i realised that I am running very very low on niceness. I had a proj grp meeting. And I was damn mean to this guy in my group cos he was being such a irritant. Firstly, he didn't do any interviews cos he couldn't find anyone and he was the only one out of the 9 of us who couldn't find a single person to meet the 2 person quota set for each group member. I think that is very unfair to everyone in the group. So I asked him to take down notes while the rest of us analysed our transcript and read out things for him to write. And it got me damn irritated because he was so slow and he keep seeming like he was thinking, BUT there is NOTHING to think cos he is just supposed to take down what we say!!! And cos i was sitting next to him, I could see wad he was writing, and i would be like "hey, you didn't take down what she just said" or I'll go " are you taking that down?" cos he didn't seem to be writing wad ppl were saying and he also wrote different things from what we said sometimes and he like kept reading from my transcript which was totally unncessary cos his job was to listen and write that's all. NO THINKING involved. I was so fed up that I think I spoke to him quite harshly and everyone in the group was visibly irritated with him cos a few of the girls were giving me this look like.. "why is he being such an idoit". I tried my very best to remain calm. But I think anyone could detect the frustration in my voice from 1km away. The weirdest thing is that I could hear my own mean tone, and I didn't like it cos I didn't wana make the guy feel bad, but then.... I just couldn't bring myself to feel bad enough to stop sounding mean cos I really was frustrated with him.

I seriously find it so hard to be nice genuinely. I think theres something wrong with me.

charlyn recorded history @ 11:13 PM

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Where in the world

For those of you who don't know, I am thinking of furthering my studies right after I get my degree. I have just always thought I will do it in Singapore (Cos I love Singapore and NUS is top 30 so WHY NOT?). Until one of my friends told me that Singapore universities have a no inbreeding policy. They want ppl who have graduate degrees from other countries. Basically, my plan is to teach in poly. BUT just in case I decide I would like to teach in Uni afterall, I don't want to be rejected cos I'm not international enough. (which btw I think is rather silly. Cos sometimes coming from an international uni may not be what's best for the students. One example: WQ has been telling me tt he totally can't understand some of his lecturers cos their accent is too strong. He says they're brilliant in their fields, but what is the use when their knowledge is not being passed onto the students because of the communication breakdown?)

ANYWAYS... such is the system, and I have no time or power to change it. SOooo I have suddenly thought of going overseas to study my masters. And now... it's like I have an ocean of choices! Ok... not really an ocean, but prolly 30 more! (If i'm gona study somewhere other than singapore, I wish to study in a uni that is better than NUS, meaning unis ranking 30 and above.)

I was just surfing through some of the schools websites and i'm really quite excited. Imagine if i really do get accepted into Cornell or Stanford? hahaha... I know the chances are slim, but at least now i'm starting to dream, rather than just taking the easier way out.

charlyn recorded history @ 10:58 AM

Thursday, February 19, 2009

I wonder...

Ok, I did quite a lot of reading today so I rewarded myself with a little facebook surfing. And I was just looking at some old friends pictures in their profiles and it really got me thinking.. like how some of my old friends have changed but yet some of them look exactly the same.
For most of those that have changed, they look like an exaggerated version of their old self. What do I mean? Some who used to look good look even better, and some who looked bad look even worse. Something like that. Of course there are those that used to look good and now look bad and those who look bad but now look good. I mean... its natural for people to change because of time and circumstances.

BUT for those who still look the same... I wonder how they still look the same. I know they are the same person, so they should naturally look similar. But what I mean is that they have the same hairstyle, dressing etc. Still the same after 10 years! isn't that just crazy to be stagnant 10 years? plus its not like we're 30-40 where we're almost stable. Its like these 10 years are supposedly when we discover who we are and who we really want to be. I don't know man... sometimes I really wonder how they are, since they look like they haven't changed a bit. hahah... its not like i'm saying theres something wrong with them. Its just that i'm curious how people can just look the same after 10 years! hahaha..

ok, i'm talking nonsense. thesis time.

charlyn recorded history @ 3:04 PM

Sunday, February 15, 2009

ARGH

I am so angry I am so angry!!
I can't take this anymore!!!!!!!
I should have totally went back to hall tonight. I have an assignment that requires me to think that is due on tuesday and right now, there is just NOTHING there! on top of that, the whole house is topsy turvy. I hate my situation right now. Right now I wish I either don't live at home or don't have an assignment to do. Wait... what am I saying. I wish for BOTH!

charlyn recorded history @ 11:47 PM

Friday, February 13, 2009

The big V!

I remember how 3 yrs ago, my sis was all.. "jie, how come u have no valentine? you better get a valentine cos u're gona get too old and no one will want you." haha...

Now tomorrow is the big V day, and it will be the 2nd yr that I have a valentine. whahaha... Actually, i'm not totally big on the whole V day celebration thing. I just take it as a nice excuse to do something sweet, romantic and cheesy which you won't normally do. I know i've heard ppl say that everyday shld be v.day so we shldn't make such a fuss abt v.day. BUT seriously.... being lovey dovey everyday is just impossible.
So tomorrow is V.day and I think everywhere in Singapore, esp town, is gona be DAMN packed. cos its v.day on a saturday!! which means even more ppl than usual. No school, no work = everyone go out. yikes!

Anyways, WQ n I are postponing our v.day plans like we did last yr cos we both have to study. But we are still meeting tmr for breakfast! I wanted breakfast to be something outdoor, where we can enjoy the morning air. I wanted to eat something I cldn't cook at home (granted tt wld be a lot of things cos i don't cook). I wanted to go somewhere nearby. I didn't want it to be too expensive. I didn't want it to be too crowded. So guess wad????? We're gona eat at ang mo kio's outdoor MACDONALDS! ahahaha... i think its so cool. hehehe... its actually a really nice place, if u've nv been there before. Plus i LOVE mac's breakfast! :)

charlyn recorded history @ 2:04 PM

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

Rejection

Recently, I applied for the instana internship program. It's a very prestigious internship program cos well, you get to work at the president's office. Anyways, only 2 candidates from the whole of arts faculty will get chosen for this internship. Meaning the competition is CRAZY.

You all know how much I love Singapore and it has always been on my agenda to serve my country. So I applied. I had to send in my resume and answer some essay questions.

Even though I am a relatively good student, I really didn't think I will get chosen cos there are WAY more impressive students in FASS. Also, I would think that the istana office wld prefer someone either from economics (like PM Goh) or political science, even though there could be exceptions. (like our president was a social work major)

So there are I think 3 rounds of elimination. First round is dean's office, second is registra's office and finally the istana. Before CNY, I was pleasantly suprised when I recieved an e-mail telling me I got though the dean's office round! Even though I didn't have much reaction on the surface, inside I was really excited. I mean its the ISTANA! If I have that on my resume... imagine how impressive that would be. hahaha... no need to worry about graduating this year.

But my hopes have been shattered. I just recieved an email telling me that I have been regrettably rejected. ok.. its not that bad, i'm just trying to be drama. haha The rejection letter was actually quite sweet. I knew it was coming, but I still kinda hoped by some incredible miracle I would be one of the final 2 survivors. So I am a little bummed. Oh well... now i'm just hoping something else great will drop by my way. haha

charlyn recorded history @ 9:33 PM