Sunday, September 14, 2008
that dreadful feeling
Can one really have it all?I'm feeling so drained, so down, so jaded...I just wish I could sleep it off.but i can't seem to get enough of sleep.I don't have enought time.I've got so many things that I can't concentrate.Everything is substandard.Everything is out of focus.I've been moping around.Now I've got one more reason to do so.I don't feel like smiling.I want to run away.But why am I still here.Maybe I care too much.But in the end...Is all this worth it?If only I wasn't so human.
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Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Birthday
I didn't do anything concrete work last week because it was my birthday week. Now i'm drowning in readings, projects, assignments... Anyways, I wasn't superbly happy on my birthday. I hate the feeling that time is running out, that my life will change drastically in the next 8 years. I like stability. Growing old is so scary! I wish I could think of it as exciting rather than scary. On my b'day, Za & Cand accompanied me almost the whole day. We had lunch at KFC in J8. hahaha... I was craving it. Then we went to Far East to shop. And then we went back to J8 again to eat Fondue at Haagen Daz. They gave me flowers that are still alive in my living room today. haha.. They are really the bestest best friends a girl cld ask for. Later for dinner mum dad coco n i had dinner at hua num. Its this shop along prata house which is now my fav zi cha place. On friday, I had a sit down dinner at my house for some of my friends. I had such a wonderful time. I didn't plan any programmes. Just dinner. And everything turned out so well. I was supposed to cook but then.... I decided to let the experts (my mum n maid) handle that instead. I think most of my friends wld have liked it better that way. haha... I'll post some pictures after I get them from WQ.
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